Balloons

So I told me husband that I would like him to buy me a balloon after my delivery.

It would be something nice for me to look forward to and rather cheery.

So his reply was: Can i blow it for you?

And I told him I wanted a helium one. So that it would float and last a few days.

Then he said :"Oh, then I can breathe in some and talk to our daughter!"

:o)

The day after

denied by blogspot..

i had written a rather angsty post with regards to what happen yesterday. I awoke not angry anymore but still rather much upset and yup... it's probably going to take awhile.

At least now i have the support of my mum as a conspirator. Together we are going to roll up our sleeves and slow brew this solution i hope.

Somehow, eventually....

家家有本难念的经

对你的照顾和付出从没怨过，
只知道这是我做女儿最基本的本分。

疼惜你是不拒绝你对我的要求，
可以给的我都给。

但至少最希望的是你懂得珍惜，
一切不是利索当然。。。

我真的对你很失望。

All in a day's tally

My tally for the day... I've been jus feeling REALLY bored. From the lack of work I gathered... And I miss teaching in schools. Oh well... If I dun rest now then when right?

Funny how i grumbled and was so upset I've been working non-stop since Jan. With packed school days everyday on top of the regular private lessons.

Now, no schools... I jus listen to music in the mornings, surf, play and paint abit... Perhaps it's jus all in the mind?

Breakfast:
1 bowl of prawn mee
1plate of nasi Lemak

Snack:
1 cup of Milo

Lunch:
Half a pizza
Chocolate cake
Italian soda

Dinner:
2 bowls of lotus root soup with chunks here and there.
1 banana

Pre-bed snack:
1 cranberry cream cheese bread

Literally been stuffing my face... Rumbling hungry... Serious rumbles.. Hai.

I hope I can sleep well tonight... And not wake up so ravenous Tom!

We are at 6 months 4 days :)

Neopet moments

There are times when I feel like a caged bird. Or a rather a pet. I'm a human being having a human being...

On most days, I do what is expected of me. Mostly what people want to see me do rather than things that I want to do myself. I listen and obliged.

And of course the time zooms by because we have to fulfill family obligations. Run errands, do chores. And then what little left of it doesn't amount to very much....

I've waited for this break for a long while. It's wednesday Tom, I'm only through with less than half of the things that I had planned to do.

And yes, preggers or not, I don't like to be told to stay home.

Give mr some oozing mozzarella.

A girl has a good day.

We are now about a week away from 5 months.

There are times when I wonder how my friends do it. The ones who litigate and work till 11plus at night, on weekends. The ones who teach 6 days, 10 hours shifts....

I do two schs in the morning till 2, teach about 4 students till 8. And I feel like I'm about to collapse and all I can do is to lie on bed and stuff my face with 大饱！

Today I work the same crazy hours, went for a hair cut that became a belated bday treat. A much needed shaping to my ah Lian looking mop of hair.

And then proceeded to have a nice spinach pizza, and a most yummy gooey chocolate molten cake.

This has been such a lovely day.

Candle-lit nights

I miss the nights where breeze jus sweeps through,

The lights of colored candles, Playing through the lantern lit editions,

I miss me telling the piano my sorrows in the still of the night,

I miss them whispering back to me that it's going to be alright . . .

I remembered a time that even though I had moved home and I was not staying alone.

I still got up and playing with the damper on.

My mother would tell me the next day that she had heard me in the night and asked me if everything was alright . . .

I miss making friends with my nocturnes and how one every other occasion I find a breakthrough and it makes me feel alive.

I remembered the revelation I had one night. It was on the hill, i just needed to play my Chopin. Armed with a glass of the fuzziest of a 08 Chardonnay, I had found the magic in the Lines. And for the next 3 hours, the music jus flowed...

It has made me pretty much whole again.

The magic had made me feel that despite all that had happened. I was going to be alright . . .

Into the 2nd

We are at 13 and a half weeks or 14 and a half weeks now... i think...

I have kinda lost count. haha.

We did the oscars, not bad considering that the radiographer have to agitate the baby a twice and we finished the scans in 3 attempts. sure beats 4 hours. So the tests came back ok, which makes us happy campers.

The symptoms have sort-of dwindled off...
1) morning sickness has become post dinner sickness
2) i still have motion sickness
3) Hubby says i'm more easily irritable. haha
4) I bought the ridiculously Flopsy which has chased away the hips and backaches for 4 nights now. thank god.
5)I cannot fit into any pants at all now. and have found another best friend in the belly belt.

Yesterday morning i woke up with small red dots of rashes on my face. they have become blotchy red ones this morning. FML...

Must wear some mineral coverage to work later. sigh...

On a happier note. I made an impromptu appointment to go see dr Seng. It was a fri afternoon instead of the usual sat morning one. I was having weird sore feelings in the tummy for the whole of thu and decided to get it checked out.

It's been a very fatigue week. I wonder how some mummies stay at work for 8 hours. Then I found out many worked only half days and went home to rest. The nausea has officially hit an all time high.

1) heat only makes the nausea worst. It's been bread, bread and bread...

2) my meat cravings have started to come back at week 10. I had to have chicken rice and happily managed a rather successful half plate. Yayness for the portion.

3) chocolate in small portions like bread and cookies seem fine. With a generous helping of fresh milk. But still rejected brownie. Huiying says maybbe it jus wants expensive ones. I suspect and will start trying!

But no more milk. Apparently my system is upset. Ie: the bowels is making the muscles act weird. So no milk for 3 days until everything is settled.

At the doc. A very clear scan was seem. It sure beats masses of blurness which our normal untrained eyes can't see. The formed was very defined and baby was very active, ala kungfu panda!

This brought a silly smile to the whole afternoon.

Yesterday morning morning I went to the MOE bog the briefing of my AMIS certification rubbish. This is other a epic 6 months application where my application first got lost and then the notification email was then also somehow lost again. It has been a tedious email battle with the stupid said MOE division. This and the other matter with the HDB has been me realize that:

1) the people working at the Stat boards have a ball of a time.

2)waste time at nonsensical meetings and training like 3 days a week.

3)spend the remainder 2 days working at a snail pace.

Probably get off work early everyday...

That say, they stormed through the briefing and let us off 30mins early and I decided to make plans for lunch. By some stroke of a genius luck, the bf was on leave and at her mother's. So in my Buay pie seh mode I invited myself over to join them for lunch! Its nice to see the cutest cowgirl and his sister for awhile as they go about their normal routine.

Then I heard scary horror stories about breastfeeding, of pain like pebbles, tears and blood.

I went home and prayed before I slept that I would preserver and have the courage to pull it through.

A scan made exciting!

I was not successful in my nap attempt. Same story for the whole week. Bloody noisy Low-flying fighter jets practising for the rsaf open house. Bah!

I realised after dinner that :Whoala! there is something rather exciting to look forward to!"

Today i found out that if by luck, u get a good radiologist for the Oscar's test, They might even tell you the sex of the baby! And that you could prod a baby! super cool!

Haha! This will probably make the "drinking water, scan and pee" process much better! Yatta!!

The lion's party

We attended the little lion's 1 year old party.

Didn't seem like so long ago that i had lunch with the bf and we bought a lion soft toy,

Then he popped out, and was grumpy.

He's now 1, knocked out on wine jelly and full of cute didi-ness!

Still we dig seeing the kiddos and jus hanging out over food.

The jets seem to have stop flying for now. Me jus wants a quick nap.

Does not like bananas and prawn mee. ~

Cat naps

I missed the yearly 三步一拜。so I dedicated merits by going through my sutras and chanting with much gusto for my 早课。

Had some vegetarian bee hoon which were then rejected. And plonked myself on the sofa and jus moulded away while the hubby rested.

Managed to clock in 3 small naps in between some TVB, Andy Lau, Laughing Gor movie.

Efficient and rather satisfying.

Made myself some nice 3 cheese ravioli with a pre-made tomato sauce for tea, Which was all very gladly accepted. :)

And continued to be a couch potato till about 530 when the husband suggested we change and head to the temple for a quick pray with the MIL and niece.<

p>Dinner was half of a yummy fish and chips at the manhattan fish market at iluma.
(yes, well put by the hubby of my bf : so much better than fish and co!)

We are all back home again and ready to lie in bed and watch tv again.

Nice!

A variant in symptoms

There are the good days and the not so good ones.

Yesterday I could eat rather well, kept most of it, taught 3 groups classes. YMCA-ed and MAcarena-ed as well.

Today was a low energy pitch differentiation and emote in drawing PAL class but. Boy oh boy!! Felt sick, mildly crampy or stretching out very often.

Ham and bread breakie failed, didn't fancy tamago sushi and fried Tofu, prawn tempura lunch.

Half a cup of hot chocolate for tea. Made me super wozzy.


(I think it's my 5th or 6th attempt).

So I came home and made myself some scallop porridge drizzled with Some fish sauce. Finished all 4 rice Bowl servings separately at a moderato pace.

I'm jus so tired and not sleeping well at night. Must somehow reduce wastage...

And jus simply wants chocolate...

food

It's a rather peculiar feeling :

Not liking the things that you always do, even the most favourite of comfort food. On top of that, holding in quite well the ones u scoff at. I sure do hope it gets better instead of lasting for the whole journey. This is kinda like buying 4D i reckon. I'm beginning to get bored of chinese food.

Thank god that tomato pasta still works, and how i wish chocolate would too!

3 more weeks left in term 2 and sweet holidays! Am toying between taking classical performing lessons or classical vocals again. jus for the sch holidays, and see how things goes in 5 weeks.

Also, i noticed the posts posted by the smart phone tablet, have some strange word correction and some sentences in my previous posts don't quite make sense. So lappie rocks it still!

A fishy lunch

It's easy to drop an SMS and go, "hey, how are you, " how's things?

But its after that that's tricky. Let's meet up and the never- can- finalize a time part that's tricky to nail down.

We all have work and families but the once in awhile lunch.

With some friends it's jus easier.

That's why, the older u get the lesser u keep. And some, well, jus simply grow apart.....

Though bring your 30s it doesn't matter very much. And lousy food can also make a great lunch. Ha!

Wishing' and hopin'

Sometimes,

We pray hard. Believe hard. Hope hard.

Other sometimes,

W don't dare to pay hard, believe much lesser, ask ourselves to hope less.

And Just sometimes,
We do get what we've been wishing for and just begin to hope and keep our fingers crossed again.

O:-)

have a happy Easter too!

Sent from Samsung tablet

Buy 1 get 1 free

I want to feel the joy, the attachment but after 2 incidents I'm really scared.

Jus cautious and protecting my heart. And the others as well. I'm afraid I will disappoint.

Jus crossing my toes and fingers that all goes well.

Somehow I feel that u feel the same way too.

This kinda makes me rather sad.

A home

I miss holland hill,

I miss having to call a place my own.

I miss the space, the liberty and the independence. And never to have anyone throw your belongings out of the house or slam the door on your back....

Though it was at the darkest time of my life, I found the solitude I much needed. And have such fond memories of the place.

It's never the same staying with someone. Not even my own parents....

Like Ajahn Brahm says, there's never end to one's suffering. U transcend from single woman suffering to married woman suffering.

Sent from my iPhone

longetivity

I attended a funeral this evening as a plus 1. Though not the least bit aquainted, i was holding back my tears when the grey-haired mother came out in sobs to see her 53 year old son off. He was a young father of 2 girls. One of whom with the husband knows from his rowing days.

It brought back memories of the time when my uncle had passed away and how difficult it was for my grandma,

This really struck a chord. I hope that 菩萨保佑，身体健康。恶病千万不要复发。 让我可以有声之年照顾我的两个老人家，先送他们。。。

I don't need to live to a ripe old age... jus a little longer then them will do.

A can of beer

I left my last marathon thursday stop feeling deeply disturbed and apalled. I had walked into the house and saw my 10 year old student drinking from a can of beer.

"are u drinking beer?"

"yes"

me looks astonished.

mother actually replied me "She was out in the sun today, so i gave her a beer to cool her down...."

Me is stunned.... very stunned and continued to be so till the end of the night.

She proceed to drain out the can before her class with me. The class that was suppose to be her first post holiday class. She tried to play her scales and her exam pieces.

I knew it was not her fault that she couldn't play well, the girl was flushed like a baked lobster and slurring....

WTF right?

And yes, this is the same said student who already has a weak heart, special blood meds and a fridge of health issues.

What i don't understand is that, she was a tiger mum to her elder one and she is turning out brilliantly and a pleasant to teach.

Update your friends

Elmi <teomeowmeow@gmail.com> wrote:

>The niceness of the gift of a tablet equates to increased IT savvy-ness and inclination to blog. It also entails major reorganization of contacts, updating if numbers with the outside world. I did it in one evening while watching ratatouille. Hubby actually commented that that I din have that much contacts to import, less away the oonce who are good riddaonce and have disappeared out if my life. I seriously don't have test many friends anymore.
>
>The older you get, the more your phone list shrinks.
>
>Oh well quantity doesn't really matter these days.
>
>Sent from Samsung tablet

Ruffling

The fun, non technical stuff I enjoying doing now.

Their hugs and ruffling on my maxi dress. Cheeky smiles on mornings, on days that I'm blue. Makes it all jus go away.

I love being teacher Elmi.

Hot cafe mocha

It definately is a age thing when u start craving for a midday hot cuppa.

Nowadays more so. The weekday bug of the coffee craving with a tea snack strikes. Promptly at 230pm.

If left unattended the lethargy is overwhelming at 4pm. This makes one constant thought revolve : go home. Cancel the lessons and go home...

So I mostly choose to persevere and go a my regular tea fix. And what wonders a short 30 min tea can do!

Bon cafe!

Tough love

Teaching can be tough. tough love. Tough hearts.

It stretches your tolerance, extends your patience.

It can be so rewarding that you feel accomplished in the life u have,

It also sucks you into e depths their dysfunctionality.

I wish things could really be better for them. If they had knew, would they have turned back?

Time off

Am really looking forward to the Mar holidays.

Time off to do things I want to: go swimming, catch up on reading, playing my piano. Doing nothing.

No appointments to rush to, no endless cycles of weekend errands and a-million one things to do.

I really the burnt out and jus need a vacation.

So that I can un-stuff and destress from the madness threatening to burst at the seams

A cold

On Chap Gor Meh 初十五，the flu bug attacked with full-on vicious-ness...

I remembered the last cold I had, visits to the GP and only finally killing it after a mega dose of strong antibiotics. I was already faintly pregnant at that time!!


Of course we din find out till like 3 weeks later....

Till today, we will never know for sure what the cause was, but I ain't taking any chances this time. No meds at all!

Whether it comes soon or later, I will be jus a tad more careful.

Did I know that most pregnant women had a cold at least once when they were preggers?

Oh well.

Testing 123

So I found out today that i can update My blog again via email.

If this test post works, I'm back in business!

Finally an outlet again.

Yatta!